Bittersweet Life...

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

let me start this entry by bloggin about the negative stuff first,coz i wanna be happie at the end of the day.

i dun wanna go for my atc on fri... i rather go to sch... i've got no more motivation or 'push' to carry on for the course.. serious. i wouldnt care if i were to be sacked fmr the course... argh.. due to atc, i cant for the annual police week... and i cant drop by taman warisan on fri. i was soo lookin forward to go taman warisan on fri nite... but then, i suddenly remembered i hadta go away to ubin... im sooo frustrated. this course is almost as if cuttin me away frm wat my life used to be... it's really bugging the way i live my life, forcing me to cancel promised plans, or missing out on sth special.

ok.. tt's aside... the happie stuff now..

was 15 min late for practical coz of the traffic jams... but, it was wat i felt at the end of the lesson tt mattered.. it was a new experience for me.. it's was really d&t like... using weird machinery and the work we're supposed to do is very dangerous. u noe the thing they show u on tv, where some guy will put a rod near some metal stuff, then there'll be a bright light and sparks burstin out? the one where they wear this huge mask to cover their face? haha... no idea wat im talkiin about? nvm.. hha.. it's called weldin... all of us had to wear apron and other stuf... anyway, bottomline is tt it's one thing i can look forward to in my course, finally.

secondly, i LURVE todae's SSP meeting... haha... awesome fun i tell ya... performed/ acted for the first time ever after years since i last did tt... i was soo nervous. messed up a lil... but damn, there's like an enormous room for me to improve... haha.. in the first place, i didnt noe if i did the my part well... the experience of performing in mly was unique and cool... sth very new to me. i felt awkward at first readin the script in malay... hehe.. but managed to get the hang of it soon enuf.. i wanna do it again... for the fun of it. it's fun expressin urself, i found out...

participating in SSP made me realised tt u never noe till u try... serious. i never knew tt i could perform in front of a crowd and still havin fun and not feelin malu or shy.. haha. im lovin' it! muahahaha...

ema: awww... love ya too sweetie..!
laney: haha.... goodie tt u're back...

Smashed into pieces at 6/08/2005 09:31:00 PM